Here's What I Think

Do you believe that when your number is up, your number is up? When it's your time, it's your time?

I have thought about this a lot. It seems that these thoughts are following me around. The straw that broke the camel's back was last night on david's blog. He is very nervous about his impending surgery. Rightly so. Any type of surgery can potentially be fatal.

Here's what I am learning. I can't change what has happened in the past. I can't change that the last thing I said to Laura was sort of snippy. I can't change that I didn't go see her house when she called me on more than one occasion and I was too busy wrapped up in my own drama to go. I can't change that I didn't try to spend more time with her. I can't change that there were times when I knew something was going on in her life and I didn't take an active role in helping her. I can't change any of those things. I wish I could but I can't.

Here's what I CAN do. I can change the future. I can be better with my friends and family. I will still be making snippy comments, but I will be saying I love you after all of them. I can make the time to do things that are important to other people instead of thinking about how busy I am. I can live my life like there is no tomorrow and try not to have any further regrets. If I have learned anything from this tragedy, it is that we are not all promised tomorrow and we should be good to each other.

Let's not waste anymore of our time worrying about anything that we should have, could have or would have done. Let's do the things we can and try to forget those others.